today i was watching a video on ted talks and it featured a lady who was sharing her experiences on her love life. She went on about how she got married thinking of this perfect picture of having kids and having a picket fence and aging together with her soul mate…
Turns out she got divorced like twice and remarried like thrice..she also shared how she had a rough childhood where her parents couldn’t be there for her so she ended up being exchanged in various foster care homes…
That’s when I started staring at her …watching her expression as she was addressing the audience. She looked like she had accepted all that had happened…In fact as she was describing her past, she was making jokes about it…while getting teary in areas where she couldn’t help her emotions..
In fact the title of the video was
‘how marriages are supposed to work”
not that i care to get married anytime soon, but I was just curious. People make a fuss about being married and having a perfect love life as I roll my eyes to that illusion..
So maybe I just thought that she would say something different about it other than what am used to hearing and guess what..
she did….
She talked about how she decided to first marry herself before going into the dating world…
“now that’s just sad..” I thought to myself..but I didn’t hear the whole story…so she went on about how she decided to marry herself. To accept herself for better or for worse..she discussed how people have bad days and good days and how their attitudes change.
Most people who have bad days get the attitude for it as well…like me
Am exactly who she was talking about..sometimes I feel like am not great enough….I even like hear the sound of my voice and am like “oh shut up you sound horrible..-”
yup there’s that stupid voice inside me…On the brighter side, I still pray for it to go away..
So yeah…she talked about how she found this new side of life where she is committed to herself in good or bad…
For example, she would face disappointment in a positive way…she wouldn’t sulk like we normally would..
She would be there for herself, comfort herself…get her energy right to face the next thing in life…She was like her own cheerleader…
that’s when I got really inspired..Most times when I disappoint myself, Its like i shut down and my mind goes through this electrical span of bad energy.
but then she just told me to stop doing that…I learned that you need to be okay with yourself whether you feel like a loser or feel like garbage…
She talked about how she stack with herself through disappointing moments of her life and revealed how it changed her life…She stopped worrying unproductively..
And it got to me…hmmm…Maybe that’s the secret to dealing with life..
Its hard enough that life is hard enough…why should we make it even harder by trying to think we can change the events that occur in our lives…
Am not saying that you be happy especially when you feel like what your doing doesn’t make you grow….
am saying you should be there for yourself to give yourself that positive vibe you need to conquer the problem and finally achieve what you wanted to achieve.
Most people (me included) just focus on beating themselves up when they do wrong..that will block your focus from moving on and finding solutions to whatever is going on..
So at the end of the day, what I got from that video was that you don’t have to spend most of your energy feeling bad about something..Its normal to feel bad…but the more you don’t let it block your focus, the much better you will deal with the negative situation…..
that’s it for now…
try this and tell me how it goes…
good luck